big apple from space by autotelic

Neurotoxicity
Is killing me
With shorted circuitry
Reliving my history
Nuerovunerability
Is chilling me
Somatically
I'm cold
I'm hot
I'm cold
I'm not
This isnt life its all I've got


Limited neural plasticity
Safety and certainty
Guess it was never meant to be
Ever part of being me
Neurotoxicity
I'm mad
I'm sad
Too fucking bad
I'm stuck with a  life I never had


Bad Developmental complexity
Screwing with genes microscopically
Maybe even intergenerationally
Neurotoxicity
I'm glad
You had
Your mom and dad
Hand you down some  stability  

No social security
Burnt into memory
I always seek hypervigilantly
Living reactively
Neurotoxicity
Day or night
The world's a fright
It's do or die
Plain fight or flight

Biologically
There has to be a better way to be
Than the disordered personality
Suicidal ideationary
Neurotoxicity
Is killing me

I cry
I rage
I'll die
At some stage
With no guarantee of finality

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